Last night I dreamt about my Grandad, I was in my Nan's house and I was thinking about him, and I was trying to communicate with him. I remember picking up this old phone that my Mum used to have in her room (a yellow cord phone, with the buttons on the phone), and for some reason he was singing "Love Me Tender" in the softest voice and I don't know why. I've never dreamt of him singing to me.
A while ago I had a dream he was sitting with me in Nan's livingroom and it was set out how it used to be, he had his chair by the TV (he used to pick us up and swing us around if we sat in his chair, but then we'd sit in his lap and he'd never ask us to move) then the long 3 seater and another chair. I remember we were just sitting (but I don't know if we were talking), and then eventually he just got up and left through the wall.
I'm really distressed by these dreams because now I just want to talk to him, beg him to talk to me, because I miss him so much that it's literally got me in tears all the time and I feel like I'm just stupid about it. My mum doesn't really respond to when I tell her and I can't upset my dad about it (it's his father but it's not my biological grandfather but I never thought of him as anything else, I was very close with him), and I definitely can't tell my nan but I want to.. I truly miss him and all I want to do is talk to him, be with him one more time and get the relief I need to know he forgives me for not saying bye because I couldn't see him in the state he was the night he died, he didn't talk, he couldn't, he only listened and it broke my heart to see him like that.
I want to talk to him to know he forgives me, to know that I love him and I miss him and I just want to say goodbye, because I never did.
I do need help knowing what this dream is meaning though?
Is it just distress? Is he visiting me to let me know it's okay? What does the singing mean? I don't even know if he liked Elvis, hah. I might have to ask my Nan that tomorrow.